Reset

As someone who thrives on a schedule and having some semblance of control over her life, I think God chuckled when He blessed me with my twins. As I sit here writing, my coffee cup is cold and still half full. While one twin is sound asleep for his morning nap, I have the other lying next to me, refusing to sleep. My “me-time” break is over after 30 minutes. I haven’t showered, and in my selfishness, I feel inclined to be frustrated with my child and disappointed.

But then I look at his perfect face and remember what I would have given for this moment a year ago—nauseous and scared as I embarked on this journey of pregnancy, praying that I could make it through the workday without throwing up.

In the moments when I feel frustrated and worn out, I can pause and remember that God made me for this role. He molded and created me to be a mother of twins; He will not give me more than I can handle without Him. His abundant grace covers my mistakes and vast shortcomings. I hope that when my boys grow up and look back on their childhood, they remember it fondly—not the moments when Mom was stressed out, but the memories filled with the joy of playing outside and making everyday things special.

So instead of wallowing in the missed “me-time,” I decided to reset the day. We got his brother up from his nap and went for a little drive. I got a much-needed coffee to replace my earlier one and ended up going for a walk at a nearby park. God made such a beautiful day, and maybe this was His way of encouraging me to go out and enjoy it.

As I sit back down to finish writing this, both babies are down for a nap, tired from playing outside, and I have a few more minutes to eat lunch and take a shower before the next phase of my day starts.

I suppose my encouragement to you is this: when the day starts to become stressful before 10 a.m., take a few deep breaths and find a way to reset your emotions. God will give you what you need when you need it if you ask Him for it.